A New Year Ahead

We just finished with Christmas, and here it is time for 2011. SO much has happened in a year, and mostly I'm just ready for a new year. On Christmas I didn't take one picture of Emmy. Not one. Not even the night before, or even afterwards, and I still haven't. For one, I didn't really feel like messing with it, but I just didn't feel like I needed to for some reason.

As I said last week, I have been ill. At first I thought I had vertigo, but I am still having problems, so now I'm not really sure. All at once at work Friday December 19th, I became dizzy. I drove home with one eye open thinking I just had a migraine coming on. Got home took some headache meds and went to sleep. First thing Saturday morning when my feet hit the floor I started throwing up and didn't stop until Jason got me to the Emergency Room that night at 6pm. All day no matter if I turned my head or stood up, I got sick. I was crawling back and forth more sick than I have ever been in my entire life. In the hospital they gave me a bag of fluids because I was dehydrated, a shot of zofran for nausea, and they did some positional therapy to help redistribute the crystals in my inner ears for vertigo. She also gave me meclizine for dizziness. (doses of both zofran and meclizine were double what is normally distributed). For the entire weekend I was in bed. Monday morning I followed up with an urgent care doctor (my doctor is out for the holidays) and he added Valium to help me rest and also a trans-dermal patch for motion sickness that goes behind your ear. He told me to double the meclizine (keep in mind the meclizine was already doubled...sigh). He said if I'm not better by Thursday come back, then he said well then it's Christmas. Here, take off a week from work and if you aren't any better on Monday come back in. 

Christmas came and went and Monday morning I went back to the same place. He made me do so many different tests I thought I would have to stand on my head before it was over. He doesn't seem to think that I have vertigo or maneers now. He thinks its something worse. He mentioned all kinds of horrible things that I wont even discuss on here. 

Next Tuesday I go for an MRI, and then I see an ENT doctor on Thursday.  Since Monday my vision has been blurring and I have been weening off my meds like he asked me to.

I sleep at least 12 hours a night, every night then I get up and do a little around the house, lay back down, do some more, lay back down...get the drift? Today I put up Christmas decorations. This whole time Jason's brother has been staying with us and he has been such a blessing. He is 18 and is so helpful! I truly believe without him I would have been having to stay with someone else so that they could watch Emmy. She's been out of school on Christmas break. So I'm really thankful that Justin has been with us.

On another note, Jason got a promotion at his job!! He was an account manager at the store in the next town, now he is considered a Manager In Training to have his own store. So this means he goes all around to other stores training to have his own store to manage. This means he is on salary now. This also means that whenever a store opens or a manager quits or gets fired, that Jason goes to that store...wherever it may be. Tomorrow is Jason's last day at the store he has been at. Next week he will be an hour away every day.

So many changes, so many issues...I can't even think straight.

I'm not supposed to drive with this going on, but yet Emmy goes back to school on Monday and Jason will be gone way before she is due at school and home way way later than when she gets out. Plus, I work nights and how in the world can I work at night if Jason is gone for days at a time with this new position...I know God has a plan, I just wish HE would show me that plan so I could see clearly too. Guess that's all part of having faith.

So as I wish you all a Happy New Year, it seems that the new year will be bringing many changes to Jessica"s World.

I love you all, and even though I haven't been around to see you lately, I've been keeping up with alot of you on Facebook. And if I haven't "talked" to you lately I want you to know I love you, and I truly wish you a very Happy New Year, and may it bring many many blessings to you!