Here I am!!!

Honey! I'm home!!!

Gosh, over a month! Where has the time gone? Life has been flying by. Between car trouble, then a trip to swim, mom getting sick, and now a job change..we have alot going.

But who doesn't, right? Anywho... I hope that things are going well for you. As I hinted, we had some issues with Jason's car, then tire issues on mine, and in the same day tire issues on Jason's car. When it rains it pours it seems. Then we took a trip to swim and my car acted up a bit. But we had an excellent day. Shortly after that, mom became ill and spent some time in the hospital (which most of you know from Facebook) and now she is trying to cope. I say cope because she isn't exactly well yet. They never figured out her problems and we still don't have test results back...but, we are waiting...patiently I might add.

I have been secretly hating my job for a long time. As you all know I dream and drool over doing massage therapy as soon as i get the money. I don't enjoy working at the hospital except for the lives I touch, and in turn the ones that touch me. I love people, but what i do is not a fun job. I usually work on the busiest days of the week and I cover all 3 meals of the day plus do bath and bed changes. I run my tail off. And I've burn out to be honest. It's horrible to be working so hard at something you don't even enjoy. So I prayed and prayed and a job opening came available across town on 3rd shift week nights. Before I looked into it much, I asked my supervisor if there were any openings, and she said no.I took the other job, but as I was leaving my job, my supervisor pulled me aside and asked how to keep me. I told her I wanted nights so that I could sleep while Emmy was in preschool (which she starts this Thursday!!!) and then I could have some weekends off because I missed church terribly. She told me to consider it done. So we ripped up my 2 week notice, exit survey, and evaluation upon leaving...and nights here I come!

Tonight was supposed to be my first night on nights, but they called me off on low census. I went from a very fast paced Med-Surg floor to an overflow unit in the Women's Center. Now the max patients I have is 10 and they are all non-infectious females, which is awesome!!! I'm also in the same department as all the babies! Notice my excitement? No meals, no baths, no bed changes, and more time with family, at home, and most importantly with church!

I told you that Emmy starts preschool this Thursday. Y'all this is the first day of school...and it never stops til she's grown. Sigh. It's hitting me, all at once, that my little infant is gone, and here is my toddler that is about to be a true kid. Jason and I are taking her together for her first day, then most days he will be getting her ready and taking her, then I will be picking her up. I love that we are a team. Love it!

And while I'm bragging, might I add that Jason and I are doing well. Very well. We have started some things to help us out too. I'm doing the Love Dare from that movie, Fireproof. And he is doing a similar thing for me.

We are so very happy to be together and we have come such a long way. I have watched him fall back in love with me and love is truly a beautiful thing. Once again, we know we are doing the right things because Satan is out full force attacking us each step of the way.

For all my facebook buddies, I haven't said much about my job on there because we have been getting in big BIG trouble for talking about it. Please don't think I have ignored you, but I can't post very much with it being a hospital. So many violations as you can imagine. I will still be working 12 hour shifts just at night.

This past week I have learned a very important thing. My whole life I have heard to follow your heart. I have even told people when they were having marriage trouble or relationship issues just that...but I know different now. You have to give your heart to God, then He will lead you. You have to guide your heart. Have you ever thought of that? Following your heart usually means chasing whatever feels right at the moment whether or not its actually right. The Bible says, "He who trusts in his own heart is a fool, but he who walks wisely will be delivered" (Proverbs 28:26). Just as your heart can direct you toward hatred, lust, and violence, it can also be driven by love, truth, and kindness. As you walk with God, He will put dreams in your heart that He wants to fulfill in your life. He will also put skills and abilities in your heart that He wants to develop for His glory (Exodus 35:30-35). He will give you the desire to give (2 Corinthians 9:7) and to worship (Ephesians 5:19). As you put God first, He will step in and fulfill the good desires of your heart.

Isn't that awesome?!

Well I'm going to go for now, and I will try to visit soon. Thank you for all your continued prayers for me and Jason and for mom as well. We all have alot going right now and just as you pray  for us, we pray for you!

Love you all,
Jess